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When God Says Stand Still But Your Heart Is Tired of Waiting
"The weight of the wait hurts, but He meets me there." There's a kind of waiting we don't talk much about in church. Not the cute waiting. Not the "God's timing is perfect!" waiting. Not the "Sis, just be patient" waiting. I mean the quiet war that happens inside your chest when God says "Stand still" but the clock in your soul keeps whispering "Okay...but how long?" It's the wait that presses into the part of you that still wants clarity, timing, reassurance; anything that f
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Nov 25, 20255 min read


Living in My Truth: Why I Still Wait
"Anything you have to hide eventually hides you. I've learned that silence can sound like safety until it starts to suffocate your soul. Healing begins when you stop protecting what's hurting you and start addressing it––you can't heal what you don't confront." I've always said I live in my truth–– the good, the bad, and the in-between. I may not be bold enough to shout it from a stage, but when I write, my words carry the same power as if i was speaking through a microphone.
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Nov 1, 20257 min read


When Purpose Feels Unclear but You Keep Showing Up Anyway: Finish. Don't Quit.
"Even Dory had a word: Just keep swimming. You might not see the shore yet, but you're still moving. Because faith isn't about remembering every step––it's about trusting the One who leads." Here's the morning manna God placed on my heart today. Funny thing is, I was just sitting here trying to figure out where to start, and of course... He beat me to it. Before I even started writing this, I said, "Okay Lord, what do You want me to say?" Then I sat down at my desk and hit sh
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Oct 23, 20254 min read


Can You Love Me Naked: A Journey Through Rawness, Forgiveness, and God's Unfailing Love
"Every time I share a piece of my story, I re-touch a wound that's healing. It's uncomfortable, it's growth. I'm letting God use what...
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Oct 7, 20255 min read


Guarding My Heart Without Hardening It
"Guarding my heart doesn't mean I've hardened it–– it means I've stopped enabling, started discerning, and handed the key back to God."...
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Sep 18, 20253 min read


When Tired Feels Holy
"This is for the ones who are tired of asking, tired of waiting, tired of hoping...yet still walking with Jesus." It's been a minute...
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Aug 31, 20254 min read


After the Fast: Love at the Register
"Jesus isn't just a reason for a season––He's he gift we need everyday. Surrender isn't a one-time fast; it's a daily walk that keeps our eyes on the Promiser, not just the promise." After I finished I am Esther fast, something in me shifted and around me. When you go into a fast like Esther did––not just to ask for something, but to align with God's will––you don't come out the same. The lord doesn't just prepare the table––He prepares you. What I didn't expect was how quick
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Jul 21, 20254 min read


I Fast For Your Heart, Lord
"I'm not fasting for a man––I'm fasting for the heart of the One who chose me first." Day 1– Esther Fast Date: July 13, 2025 Today was the start of my fast, not just any fast––I am Esther fast. And let me tell you, the moment I said yes to God, the enemy came in like a flood. I felt caught between the promise of God and the familiar lies trying to drag me back. But I chose to run. Not away––into Him. I cried. I confessed. I laid it all at His feet again. He reminded me: "You
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Jul 13, 20253 min read


Confirmation Pending: While I Wait, I'm Becoming
"The tension between being a woman of faith and still having fire, voice, and personality––all being shaped by God. This is a remainder...
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Jul 10, 20254 min read


From Ashes to Armor: The Journey I Didn't Ask for, But Needed
God doesn't just heal you––He rebuilds you through every season. From loss to wrestling to rising, let Him write the story. (This is...
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Jul 7, 20255 min read


To the Men I Tried to Love
"Real love is about being all in––not holding back, not hiding, not living in fantasy. It's about choosing the mess, the beauty, the...
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Jun 22, 20252 min read


Reveal the Heart
"If it's meant––let it rise. If it's not let it rest." Dear Abba, Reveal my heart. Not the version I dress up. Not the one I present when...
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Jun 9, 20252 min read


Check Your Soil: A Heart-to-Heart on the Parable of the Sower
"We've all been every kind of soil––but God keeps sowing. The Word works. The question is––can your heart hold it? Growth doesn't depend...
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Jun 1, 20254 min read


A Prayer to the God Who Sees and Defends
"Lay it before the Lord––what shakes you won't break you when God fights for you." Lord, You are the God who created heaven and...
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May 24, 20251 min read


"Everything Costs Something: When All You Have Left is Heart"
"The cost of purpose isn't always in what you pay––but in what you're willing to surrender when you have nothing left but faith." Why...
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May 21, 20256 min read


Since the First Day: When You Don't Feel Fruitful but Heaven Is Moving
"Since the first day that you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before your God, your words were heard."––Daniel 10:12 I...
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May 16, 20255 min read


When Questions Collide With Truth: My Unexpected Encounter with John 18
"I'm caught up in wonder and mystery. My heart is an open space for you to come and have your way...I'm open." Last night, I sat down to...
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May 12, 20254 min read


The Whisper of Psalm 2: When God Speaks to the Heart That's Ready to Give Up
"The nations may rage, but God's promises stand unshaken. His whisper carries more power than the loudest fears." I told myself I was...
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May 10, 20253 min read


I Almost Gave Up, But God Stepped In
"I was ready to let go, but God took hold of me. Depression didn't kill me, It introduced me to the God who heals." I didn't plan to...
xwithlovet25
May 9, 20254 min read


Is It Faith or Am I Just Delusional?– What God Might Be saying Through 5:16
"Your life is a lampstand. God is using your deliverance––and even the waves that tired to drown you––to reveal His power. You're not...
xwithlovet25
May 4, 20254 min read
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