When Purpose Feels Unclear but You Keep Showing Up Anyway: Finish. Don't Quit.

"Even Dory had a word: Just keep swimming. You might not see the shore yet, but you're still moving. Because faith isn't about remembering every step––it's about trusting the One who leads."

Here's the morning manna God placed on my heart today. Funny thing is, I was just sitting here trying to figure out where to start, and of course... He beat me to it. Before I even started writing this, I said, "Okay Lord, what do You want me to say?" Then I sat down at my desk and hit shuffle on my worship playlist...

The very first song that came on was, "Available" by Elevation Worship.

I just laughed and said, "Okay God, I hear You–– "I'm available."

And right as I started typing, it's like He whispered again, "Add this too."

That's things about God–– He'll have you thinking you're just journaling, and suddenly He's turning it into a message. It's like He keeps saying, "I'm not done writing your story yet." He really does turn graves into gardens––and lately, I'm learning that includes the parts of me that once felt overlooked or unsure.

Welcome to My Media Team Testimony

You ever sign up for something thinking it's gonna be "simple," only to realize you just enlisted in spiritual bootcamp? Yeah... welcome to my media team testimony.

When I first joined, I thought, "Cool, I'll be behind the scenes, press a few buttons, and go home." No one told me those buttons came with responsibility, patience, technical chaos, and moments where I'd be like, "Lord, what did I get myself into?"

And yet... I still show up.

Even on the days I want to quit. Even when I feel unseen or unsure. There's this quiet conviction that bishop and prophetess keep mentioning, "Finish. Don't quit."

Trained In Secret

Before I ever served in church, God was already training me in secret. He had me in a season of solitude–– not isolation, but preparation. I didn't realize it then, but He was shaping my character before giving me a platform.

Those nights of prayer, tears, journaling, and learning to hear His voice–– that was the real training ground.

"He who is faithful in very little thing is also faithful in much." –– Luke 16:10

Sometimes purpose starts in the quiet, not the crowd. God doesn't waste your hidden seasons; He uses them to strengthen the muscles you'll need when people start depending on you.

The Introvert Assignment

Now, I'm naturally introverted–– like "Please don't make me speak on the mic" introverted. But somehow, God has me helping run camera, screens, and sound–– all things that literally amplify His message. Tell me that's not divine irony.

And honestly, I've realized this:

God doesn't ask for perfection; He asks for availability.

I still struggle with this but he keeps reminding me, you don't have to be the loudest in the room–– sometimes your quiet obedience echoes louder than any sermon.

"God doesn't call the qualified; He qualifies the called."

Finish. Don't Quit.

There's a verse that's been anchoring me lately:

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."–– Galatians 6:9

Whew. That one hits home. Because there are days where I feel like my small part doesn't matter. But purpose isn't about how much you do–– it's about how faithful you are while doing it. Let me say that again:

Purpose isn't about how much you do––it's about how faithful you are while doing it.

Whew, God is GOODT!!! When you keep showing up, even when it's inconvenient, uncomfortable, or when nobody claps for you, that's worship. When you serve with excellence, even when no one's watching, that's worship. When you say "yes" to God even though you're nervous, that's worship.

It's not about the title; the status; the views; or the followers; it's about trusting God, fully, quietly consistently.

A Moment of Honor

I also want to take a second to acknowledge Bishop and Prophetess Simmons–– because listen... they probably don't know my full story, but God sure uses them to send confirmation after I've spent moments of intimacy with Him. It's like God whispers something in prayer, and then boom, they speak the same thing from the pulpit like they've been reading in my journal.

That's how I know God is real–– He'll speak privately, then confirm publicly.

So if you're reading this and wondering if God still talks, yes, He does. Sometimes through your quiet time, and sometimes through people who've been trained to hear Him clearly. That's why covering and community matter.

For the Ones Who Feel Unqualified or Church Hurt or Hurt in General

Maybe you've been hurt by church folk. Maybe by the chaos of the world. Maybe you think you don't have what it takes to serve. I get that–– I use to think the same. But hear me: God equips those He calls and He will renew your mind.

He'll take your personality, your story, your quirks––all of it–– and use it to reach people you don't even realize you're impacting.

"And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men." ––Colossians 3:23

Serving God isn't always glamorous. It's gritty. It's growth. But it's also grace. You never know how your obedience might set someone else free.

Closing Thought

Before God used me to help build His church, He had to teach me how to be the church.

So if you're in a season where you're wondering, "Why am I still doing this?"

Maybe it's because your purpose isn't finished––it's forming.

Finish. Don't quit.

Keep showing up, even with shaking hands and tired faith. Because the same God who started this work in you...

"...will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." –– Philippians 1:6

Take This With You

Dear God,

Thank You for reminding me that purpose doesn't always come with clarity, sometimes it comes with consistency. Help me keep showing up, even when I don't feel qualified. Help me to stay available, even when it's uncomfortable. And help me trust You're turning every "why am I here" into "this is why I was called. And let everything I do bring honor and glory to Your name. In Jesus mighty name, amen.

I hope this blesses you with love and faith <3.