"Returning To Love Himself"

"When Love Isn't Missing, But Misplaced."

I wrote this journal entry awhile back, and today, while revisiting my journal, I came across this piece:

Today, God met me with Scripture—not just as words on a page, but as a conversation straight to my soul.

He took me on a journey through passages like John 3:16, 1 John 4:7–10, and Romans 8:28–29—verses that speak of love, sacrifice, nearness, and eternity. Each one felt like a whisper from heaven.

A gentle reminder:

"You are already loved in full."

I realized something both humbling and freeing: I’ve been weary about love finding me. Wondering when I’d be married. Questioning who my husband is. Asking if he’ll notice me. Wishing for connection, for relationship—something that would make me feel chosen.

(I know... it might sound like desperation.) But truthfully, without even realizing it, I had made these longings into an idol. I was so focused on the gift that I began to lose sight of the Giver.

But today—I saw God’s heart again. Not just His power. Not just His plan. Not even just His promises. I saw His love.

His love that is unfailing (Jeremiah 31:3–4).

That knows me deeply (Psalm 139:1–5).

That was poured out before I ever responded (Romans 5:8; 1 John 4:10).

He reminded me of this truth: HE IS LOVE.

Which means…When I’m longing for love and connection,

What I’m really craving is more of Him.

As I kept seeking, He led me to Ephesians 5:25—a glimpse of the love a husband is called to reflect:

One that mirrors Christ’s love for the Church.

That love isn’t rooted in romance. It’s rooted in sacrifice.

And in 1 Peter 1:22, I’m reminded that real love must come from a pure heart.

Not desperation.

Not fear.

But purity.

Truth.

And a heart surrendered to Him.

And as for fear? Romans 8 settled it: Nothing can separate me from His love.

Not delay.

Not singleness.

Not confusion.

Not even myself.

So here I am—humbled, realigned.

I’m no longer praying for love to find me.

I’m praying to walk more deeply in the love that’s been pursuing me all along.

My desire for marriage hasn’t vanished…

But it’s no longer sitting on the throne of my heart. God is.

And from that place—love will flow, In His time. In His way. With His hands on it.

I end today with John 1:14–18, the reminder that Jesus, the Word made flesh, dwelt among us full of grace and truth. And through Him, I’ve seen what love truly looks like.

I’m letting go of my idols. And holding on to the only Love that never lets go.

Because when He is enough, Everything else becomes a gift—not a god.

As He said in Matthew 6:33:"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Before You Go… A Few Questions to Sit With:

• What have you been longing for that only God can truly fulfill?

• Have you, too, been chasing the gift more than the Giver?

• What would it look like for you to return to Love Himself today?

• Is love really missing… or is God inviting you to see it differently?

May your heart be reminded, as mine was, that Love was never far. He’s been here all along—waiting to be enough for you.